#071 - Feeling Bothered

 Hello everybody! I'd like to recap my activities since the last post. First, I have been consuming a lot of Fruits Basket. So much, in fact, that as of today I concluded the third season. I'll be watching the movie tomorrow and potentially starting the original series. I am still keeping track of how I feel per each segment.

Other than Fruits Basket, I finished Doom II on the Switch and have started Doom 64. I wanted to get to the classic-style games before getting to 3, 2016, and Eternal. Today was my usual stream and yesterday after church I did not continue my binging of Fruits Basket. I relaxed and listened to some music that I have on CDs. And Saturday was the Omniarchive photo event of sorts. However, there is nothing that can be said until December 2024 at the latest. Yes, you read that right. You can hear me start to bust up laughing in my recording that won't be published until then.

In regards to folks I keep in contact with, Person #3 and I appear to be making progress toward each other. :p Things are obviously still as slow as can be but I do believe that they appreciate my presence. I've also conversed with someone I know online named Aly. About a month ago she said she enjoys my company so I try to drop in on a semi-frequent basis. And then there's Milli who still has been saying very little back to me. And so with the potatoes and vegetables out of the way, onto the meat of the post.

These posts still get essentially 0 views right now, so I'll just be rambling on about folks I know. It is bothersome- Milli's lack of responses to me. I know she is very busy and whatnot but something still seems off. At least she was willing to ask a couple of questions I had yesterday. Then today, she did something that made her feel like an idiot. I tried saying what I could in hopes of cheering her up, but that appears to remain fruitless.

Aly and Milli are in a relationship and due to Milli's actions, Aly was greatly bothered by it- even moreso than I ended up feeling. Aly and I aren't that close, but I still wish only good things upon her. Milli is a very dear friend to me (one of four friends if y'all don't remember) so of course, I only wish good things upon her as well. Today was troubling though. I would say that I need time to think but right now I don't know what to think. Milli and I are very alike which means all I can do is patiently wait for what she does next.

I'm certain that life for us will flow better at some point, but "at some point" is certainly not today. This is the storm. This is not the calm before or the destruction afterward.

As a small dessert, I will end on a more positive note. Tomorrow I plan on having lunch with an acquaintance I have known since Kindergarten. After 8th grade graduation, I only saw them for a few months more. Since then, only once back in October when I created all the current backgrounds I have for the animation that is being worked on. She's been feeling depressed and lonely, so I hope that spending time with her will help her feel less so.

I said "more positive" instead of "positive" intentionally. But we shall see how well I do at cheering someone up in person. Truthfully, I'm not good at being a regular person in this modern society. I'm good at data collection and analysis, but that doesn't translate well in terms of what to say to other people. But if Person #3 thinks I'm way smarter than them and we haven't conversed all that much yet, then perhaps I have my own means of acting like a regular person.

Other than the (planned) lunch tomorrow and more Fruits Basket, I have some yard work to do along with my regular stream. Thank you all for reading. Bye!